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  I picked up the landline in the bedroom and dialed Mom, hands shaking in fear. If Clint found out I was dialing my mother …Clint had never liked my mom ever since she first went crazy at him when she saw the state of my face one blistering August afternoon, stomping up and down in front of the house and screaming at him so that all the neighbors could hear. It’s strange to think of the bird in the bed as a tigress who once prowled in my defense.

  I had just dialed the number when Clint appeared at the door. “What are you doing, Selena?” he said, taking a slow step forward. “Do you think you’re something special, is that it? Little special Selena can use my phone whenever she wants. My goddamn phone. A phone I pay for. I’m out there working every damn day of my life and what do I get for it? The phone company screaming down my ear every month!”

  “I never use the phone,” I muttered, keeping the receiver to my ear, waiting.

  “What did you just say?” he said, dead quiet. It was the calm before the storm. It sickened me when I thought about it, but I’d learned how to read Clint’s face for signs of violence. When his eyebrow twitched like it was twitching now, that meant that soon fists would start flying.

  “Nothing,” I said, the phone ringing in my ear.

  “Put that phone down,” he said. “Why are you trying to make me angry?”

  It was the scariest rebellion I’d ever been a part of: I put the phone down, but not on the handset. I put it down beside the handset, facedown. And he didn’t notice! He clenched his fists and clicked his neck to side to side, looking like a boxer warming up for a fight. “Don’t I give you everything?” he said. “Every little thing you’ve ever wanted? Don’t I make you happy? Well, don’t I? And what do I get in return? What do I get for my trouble? This, this …Look at you.” He waved at my body. This was something he’d done since I’d put on twenty pounds. What he didn’t understand was that I wouldn’t have to find my solace in cookies and ice-cream if I had somebody who actually cared. “You’re a hog. A fucking pig.”

  I didn’t want to cry. Crying was like admitting that he had power over me. But even so, the tears stung my cheeks, sliding down and dripping onto the floor. I couldn’t stop. They came unbidden and then streamed freely.

  “Oh, come on.” He moved closer. I panicked. He’d see the phone! I darted forward and threw my arms around his shoulders, hating every second of it, hating that I ever had to touch this man.

  “Am I really a pig?” I pouted, looking up at him. I wondered if Mom had answered the phone yet and how I was going to get to it without Clint knowing.

  “Maybe that was a little harsh,” he said. “But you have to meet me halfway sometimes. You can’t just disobey me and then expect me not to get angry. Don’t you think I get enough of that shit at work?”

  Clint worked in a call center and liked to soliloquize about how difficult it was. I often heard him grumbling in the mornings or evenings when he thought I couldn’t hear. He stroked my hair away from my ear. I remembered once upon a time when he’d do that and I’d get tingles all over my body. I remembered how I’d once thought me and this man had chemistry, clicked.

  “Why don’t you let me make you feel better?”

  He started kissing my neck, making slopping sounds as I cautiously prodded at my eye, being careful to move slowly lest he felt that I wasn’t fully into the kiss. Not that I was ever fully into our kisses, and not that he ever noticed. My eye tugged. It was still bleeding.

  I’m shocked out of the memory when the man with the gunshot wound swaggers into the bar. Tall, muscular, red-headed, wearing a black hoodie and blue jeans with army-style boots.

  Instinctively I take out my pocket mirror and touch up my makeup. My face has an elfin quality, I’ve been told, and I highlight it by curling my hair to frame it. Otherwise my hair falls halfway down my back, long and blonde. I’m not skinny, but I lost those twenty Clint pounds a few months ago. I guess I’m what’s called curvy.

  I watch him as he approaches the bar. He’s got dark brown eyes, I see when he gets closer. And a wicked grin. He’s got the sort of smile which makes my mind go to dark places. I tell myself it’s the just the vodka, but I’ve only had a couple. I’m tipsy, but not drunk. I’m nowhere near close to the point of not knowing what I’m doing. I lay my chin in my hand and watch as he leans across the bar and hails the barman.

  “Hello, sir,” he says, smiling. The way he says “sir” is like he knows that he’s really the boss, almost as if he’s subtly making fun of the barman. He doesn’t seem affected by his gunshot wound except for wincing slightly as he points to the drink he wants. “But you see, the problem is I haven’t got any money. I’m short on funds, so to speak.”

  The barman squints at him. “Then I can’t get you a drink,” he says. “What’d you think was gonna happen, mister, if you walk up to a bar with no money?”

  I don’t think. I have spent so much of my life up until this point just thinking, pondering, going over and over and over …So as I walk to the bar, I blot my mind. “I’ll pay for his drink,” I say.

  A thrill runs over me when he looks at me with those dark brown eyes. “Well, thank you, miss.”

  The barman starts pouring the drink.

  “Aren’t you the man I saw bleeding on a stretcher?”

  He nods shortly. “Quite possibly, ma’am. I’ve done my fair share of bleedin’ tonight.”

  “And now you’re here.”

  “I can tell you’re the observing type.” I suppose my accent is thick, but this man’s is thicker, a real Texan twang that makes me think of long, dusty plains. “What do I take as the reason for this kindness?” he asks as the barman hands him his drink.

  I pay and we go to my table. He sits down and sips his drink, closing his eyes and savoring it. “Nothing like a good ice-cold beer after being hit with lead.”

  “You seem pretty calm for a man who was just shot.”

  “And you seem pretty calm for a lady who just finished her drink in one sip.”

  He nods at my glass. He’s right. I didn’t even realize. I go to the bar and get another vodka and Coke, and then return to the table.

  “So, what do you do for a living?” he asks.

  “I’d rather not talk about it.”

  “Just making conversation, ma’am, and believe me, it ain’t something I’m partial to normally. But seeing as you were kind enough to purchase this here beer for me, I figured I’d play the dainty damsel.” He winks at me, and then takes a sip.

  I can’t help but laugh. Once the laughter has passed, I say, “I mean I’d rather not talk about myself at all. You can have my name but nothing else.”

  “How blessed I am. And your name is?”

  I tell him.

  “Well how’d you do, Selena? I’m Dante.”

  “Dante?” I giggle. “Is that seriously your name?”

  “Last time I checked. Why?” He says “why” with the “h” emphasized like an old southern man, though he can’t be older than thirty.

  “Because Dante is an unusual name and I read Inferno not that long ago.”

  “I’m afraid I’m not familiar with it.”

  “It’s a book,” I say. “It’s a nice name. I like it.”

  He tips an imaginary hat. “You have my gratitude.”

  “Do you talk like that on purpose?” I ask.

  “Like what?”

  “Like what,” I mimic.

  “Are you making fun of the way I say the letter ‘h’, brave girl?”

  “I am. I am, and there’s nothing you can do about it!” I slap his hand. I feel wild with vodka and lust, and lust is the stronger of the two. This man has my thoughts going wild, and yet I still can’t get Mom out of my head. The two slam together, whirring. A plan formulates. It’s crazy. It makes no sense. But there’s an urge inside of me I can’t fight. Suddenly, poring over the baby books and Mom’s speech and meeting this man all seems connected.

  “I talk like this because my mother talked like th
is,” Dante says. “She had an accent so thick folks sometimes thought it was an old radio recording they were hearing at the bank and not a lady.” He smiles, looking at the table but not seeing it. He’s so handsome with that faraway look on his face. “And what about you—”

  I take his hand in mine. My heart hammers, my knee won’t stop bumping up and down under the table, and suddenly my tongue feels unwieldy. But I want this. For the first time in my life, I’m going to wildly take something I want.

  “I have a proposition for you,” I say.

  “What kind of proposition?” he asks, smoothing his thumb over my knuckles, his dark brown eyes full of meaning.

  “I want you to take me back to your place and use me however you want until you get me pregnant. I want you to fuck me for however long it takes until your baby’s growing inside of me. I don’t care if it takes weeks, but we’ll start tonight. Okay? How does that sound?”

  Dante tilts his head at me. “Is this serious?”

  “This is serious,” I say, voice firm.

  “Then I say I don’t know why we’re still sitting here. Come on. Let’s get going.”

  Chapter Four

  Selena

  We take a cab back to his place, which is forty minutes outside the city in a small, hidden place called Sun Town. I keep waiting for my inner voice to tell me that this is a mistake, that I’ll regret it in the morning. The truth is I’m not that drunk. A few vodka and Cokes don’t rob me of my senses. When I was with Clint he once made me drink nine beers and somehow I still managed to avoid his fists that night. I’m lucid, aware, and as I look at Dante’s muscular body, my own aches with desire.

  He turns to me and looks me up and down. “Just here,” he says to the cab driver. “Let me run into the apartment and I’ll get the fare.”

  “No, it’s okay.” I pay the fare and go into his apartment building.

  His apartment is spartan except for a photograph of him and a red-bearded man above the TV. “Who’s that?” I ask.

  “My brother,” he says. “Good man.”

  It has two bedrooms, one bedroom given over to cupboard boxes full of car or motorcycle parts, the other with a well-made bed and little else. A half-full glass of water rests on the bedside table. “I don’t spend much time here,” he says. “And I pay my cleaner well.”

  “Maybe a little too well,” I say. “It’s like a ghost apartment.”

  “Does that bother you?”

  I’m facing away from him. He comes and stands close behind me, pressing his groin into my ass. It feels so, so good. His cock goes hard. I feel it through his jeans. Rock-hard and big. He presses it firmly against my ass, grinding up and down, and I lean forward and grind with him. For a while we just stand there, not talking, pretending that the dirty thing we’re doing isn’t happening. And then he reaches down and slides his hand up between my legs, pressing his palm against my clit.

  “Fuck,” I whisper.

  He grabs my shoulder and turns me around, staring down at me, hand working outside my pants. “That’s the idea,” he says quietly. “But first I wanna see you come.” Quick as a wolf, he grabs me and lifts me up, throwing me over his shoulder. I squeal as he carries me to the bedroom. He drops me on the bed and goes to his knees. “If I don’t see your pussy soon, I think I’m gonna die.”

  “Like I said, use me.” I moan when he pulls my pants down, quickly, harshly, until my pants and my underwear lie twisted and discarded on the floor.

  He grabs my thighs and splits my legs, bringing his face close to my bare pussy. All I see is a muscular man in a hoodie and a head of red hair. I feel his breath on my pussy, hot on my clit, whispering inside of my hole.

  “You better come fast for me,” he says. “I need my dick in that fucking hole.”

  “I will,” I promise. “I—”

  But I can’t talk anymore. He presses his tongue against my clit, making it a hard point of heat and pleasure, and then licks up and down so fast I can’t think, let alone talk. He flicks his tongue as though he’s a snake, driving my clit wild, the heat in my pussy almost unbearable. I moan loudly and close my legs around his head. I won’t think about what I’m doing. I’ll just ride the pleasure. I shift my hips with the movement of his tongue. And then the pleasure begins to mount, fire-hot and full of pressure, pressing against the wall of my pussy as though it wants to break free. I bite down, and then the pleasure explodes.

  I usually only squirt when I’m pleasuring myself, but as Dante works me with his tongue I can’t help it. It’s too hot, too intimate, too wild and dangerous. The orgasm releases in one massive rush, pouring out of me and onto his tongue. That he grabs my thighs harder and licks me faster just makes me all the hornier; he doesn’t care how dirty we get; he wants to get even dirtier. He licks me until the orgasm fades and then stands up, pulling his clothes off. I help him, leaning forward and pulling his waistband down around his balls.

  Oh, my fucking god. Oh. My. Fucking. God.

  His cock springs up. It’s ten inches, maybe more, and thick. A vein runs down one side. It looks like a strong cock, the sort of cock which makes me frightened for a second. But then the fear passes and excitement takes its place. The idea of that cock filling me …completely filling me …

  “Suck it,” he says, voice growly with lust now. I can tell he’s struggling to control himself.

  I look up at him. “Don’t hold back,” I say. “Use me, Dante.”

  “You better be sure,” he says.

  “I am,” I tell him. “I really am.”

  “Then I’m gonna fuck your perfect little mouth.”

  Before we can say anything else he grabs the back of my head and forces his cock into my mouth. I open it as wide as it’ll go, but still he chokes me. It’s just too big. I hurt my jaw stretching my mouth open. And then he goes even deeper, pushing all the way to the back of my throat. I gasp for air. But it makes me horny. I like his cock choking me. I like being utterly at his mercy. I like the way spit and pre-come dribbles out as he pulls away. He fucks my face for several minutes, the room a chorus of his growling and my choking and gasping and spitting.

  Once it’s over and my eyes are red and my cheeks flushed, he stares down at me with trembling cheeks. “I need to see that fucking ass,” he says. “That round, perfect fuckin’ ass. I need to slap it as I drive into you. Turn the fuck over.”

  I do as he says. I want him to drive into me from behind as well. I want it so badly, I behave as I have never before behaved. I’m usually shy, but the combination of everything that has happened—Mom, the baby books, and now this hunky stranger—makes me new. I stick my ass up and moan for him: “Fuck me hard. Pound into me fucking deep and hard. I want your big fucking cock inside of me. Please, oh, please.”

  “You’re so fuckin’ sexy,” he growls, moving his hands over my ass cheeks. “I want to tie your fucking hands to the bedpost.”

  “Do it!” I cry, the idea making my clit burn. “Tie me, Dante!”

  “Wait.” He pauses. “Are you serious?”

  I twist my neck around so that I can face him. “I am,” I say. “I want you to.”

  He looks at me to make sure I’m serious and then says, “We’ll need a safe word.”

  “How about inferno?” I offer.

  “Inferno works. Wait here.” Before he leaves, he spanks me on the ass cheek so hard he leaves a red handprint.

  I lie there, panting and moving my hand over my sore red ass, as he goes into the other bedroom to get the rope. I suppose this is the moment where I could have doubts and decide to leave. This is the moment where all this might seem too much for me and I’ll run and later tell myself I was mad with grief, longing, desire, whatever. But I don’t feel the urge to leave. All I feel is the urge for this muscular, handsome man to tie me up and fuck me like I’ve never been fucked.

  He ties the rope around my wrists and then to the corners of the bed. It is camping-style rope, elasticated, and holds me tight.

  W
hen I’m spread-eagled, he climbs onto the bed behind me. “How do you feel?” he asks.

  “Powerless,” I whisper, pussy twinging at the word. “I feel like you could do anything you want to me. You could take me for as long as you want and there’s nothing I can do. And I want it. I want it so fucking badly.”

  He leans down, bringing his lips close to my cheek. His giant cock rests against my ass, ready to strike at any moment. “Beg me,” he says. “If you want it that badly, beg me like you’re my own personal whore.”

  I let out a long, shaky sigh. This is new territory for me. But I want to try it, I discover once I look inside myself. I don’t want to be vanilla anymore. And I want that baby. The urge of making a baby drives me just as strongly as the primal urge alone. It’s an intoxicating concoction.